“You’re so inspiring, Lady Gaga! Your lyrics are like poetry to me!!”, a little monster shouted while Lady Gaga passed her fans. She turned around slowly and looked directly in the little monster’s eyes.
“Rara ahahah roma romamam gaga uhlala”, she whispered and disappeared.
I was this scared 15 year old boy coming to the realization that he’s different from most kids. It was an intense feeling, as if I was alone for most of the time.
I was a freshmen in high school, so that meant I had to deal with coming to a new school, meeting new friends, finding my classes, & to top it off needing to feel comfortable with who I was.
It took me some time to tell those friends closest to me & even longer telling my family. Luckily I had an older brother who was also like me, so it took some tension off me when it came down to telling my mother. Things didn’t go as smooth as I would’ve hoped but there wasn’t much my mother could do. I felt as if I’d betrayed her & ashamed her with all these problem that were soon to come in my future.
I was miserable for a while, but things did get better. My mother loved me wholeheartedly, unconditionally, & sternly. My brothers & sister embraced me like I should’ve known they would. My best friends rejoiced at my new found self. My school mates never judged just laughed with me. My life had found the meaning in living your life as who you are. I was happy.
My name is Anthony Diaz & I’m a proud gay man. I love, I laugh, I smile, I cry, I live my life as I want to live it. As me & no one else’s expectations of me. What people think about me is none of my business. Life gets better.
To each and every single teen out there struggling with who you are, know that I love you without even knowing who you are. Your beautiful & deserve to shine. Love yourself & others with soon follow.
Dont send me your Hugs&Kisses, Yet alone your Golden Wishes. You’ve stolen my whole humanity, & left me with this desperate clinging sanity. Cause I won’t be here when you arrive, I found this thriving passion to survive. I’m gonna love me for the very first time, because I’m living proof of a whole hearted mind. I’m gonna love the world beautifully, & ill never be the hate you hold so dearly. So keep everything you barely have to give, you need it more than ill ever do to live.